well...I don´t know what to say...
I´ve wanted to post so many things here on DA as promised at the beginning of 2010 and then everything fell apart...
I lost my parents on June 30th in an accident and since this day I feel like I died with them. I had to move from our house in which I used to live with them since 1992, living alone now is so hard for me and I still seem to just exist insead of living...
All these past eight month changed me a lot...I couldn´t think of anything else then my parents and all these things you need to go through if you "become a heir"...german bureaucracy is truly exhausting...eight month and my carpet is still covered with documents...it seems that you´ll be never able to be in mourning for your loved ones because of bureaucracy....
All these years ago I used to handly my feelings through art...may it be photography, painting or redesign something...but then I kind of lost that part of me...I don´t know if it´s just natural to loose your creativity due to shocking experiences, or if my mind just don´t want to produce something which will remeind me of that day forever and ever, even if I´m aware that i´ll never be able to forget this day and how helpless I feel...
Why am I writing all this here? Well...once I want to let those few people who know me know why I stopped posting anything here...and furthermore I want to encourage myself to be creative again...maybe it´ll work...maybe not...time goes by and everything changes...I don´t want to loose one more very important part of my life like I lost my precious parents....